Current mood:
restless But still too far away
For me to keep you in my clutch
Forever and a day.
I know that you exist
Because every day I catch a glimpse
Of what it would be like
If you were mine.
These walls I hide behind
Are supposed to keep me safe
Because I'm frightened that I'll be alone.
But all they're doing is making sure
That all I'll ever be is alone.
I try to open up
But my fears take over
Keeping me quiet
And hiding what I feel.
I bring the words to my lips
Then swallow them down
Without ever whispering a sound.
My walls need windows...
Or doors.
Something that can open and close freely
Allowing me to be more open
Yet closed off when I want to be.
There's more to me than meet's the eye
But will anyone ever get past the wall
To see the real me?
I need someone strong enough and quick enough
To break down the walls
Before I have time to reinforce them.
I need someone to hold me
While the walls come crashing down around us.
