Current mood:introspective
I don't want to be first
I want to be last.
Consider me a thirst
That is from the past.
Take advantage of me...
For you know that I'm the one
That will always bend to see
That what you need is done.
But what about this...
This person I am on the inside?
Working on everyone else's wish
Putting myself off to the side.
How can I expect to be treated
A certain way by others
When everything about me is seated
In failing myself - not my brothers.
I'm openly pleasing to those in my life
But when it comes to myself I'm often left out.
Why do I continue to put up with this strife?
I mean, really, is there any doubt?
When I put everyone else's needs
In front of my own
There's only one place it leads
And it's not to a throne.
Amanda needs to be
The most important person
Can't you see?
She's lost somewhere in that head
Covered up by hate, jealousy.
It's all been said...
She needs to settle the controversy.
Amanda needs to learn
To put herself first.
To strive for the things she yearns.
To quench her internal thirst.
Happiness is out there,
And it's well within her touch.
She just needs to care
And start to act as such.
Love yourself the most
And others will follow you
You have to be the host
Everything else will ensue.
I want to be first
I don't want to be last.
Consider me a thirst
That was quenched in the past.